Time to Begin Anew

It's 2:30 a.m. and it's still so busy outside. One of my neighbors is having a party, and I can hear strains of "Land of 1000 Dances," and "Fill Me Up, Buttercup" echoing in the courtyard.

I've just gotten home from Amber's party where, thankfully, I was able to make my exit before K showed up. I didn't have that much to drink tonight because I am still nursing a terrible hangover from Friday night.

That night, I ended up being most decidedly un-Elizabeth-Bennet-like. I'm too ashamed to even write about it here, but let's just say that Kristen and I met these guys, and I ended up acting in a matter that is totally unlike me.

Maybe it was a good thing in a way, though, because right now I just want nothing to do with guys. I feel like this entire week, I've just gotten in way over my head and need to withdraw and hide from it all. No more Match.com, no more fretting about K, no more thoughts of finding a new relationship.

So here are my resolutions for 2006:

1) I will NOT spend one minute thinking about finding a new relationship. There are other, more important things to focus on.

2) I will work on continuing to stay in physical shape and will begin to get myself into emotional shape.

3) I will not let my self-esteem be influenced by any male's behavior towards me.

4) I will focus on work, school, and my tutoring; I will give each 100% effort.

5) I will finally finish setting up my condo so it looks like a cozy home instead of a dump.

That's all I can think of at the moment. I just want 2006 to be a good year--one that I can look back on and feel fulfilled, instead of ashamed, as I do when I look back on 2005.

Please let it be so!