Refresher Course

Okay--I need a brief reminder of my New Year's resolutions. Yesterday I realized I was starting to get the clingy tendency--meaning I started to focus way too much on the Bagel. I think it happened when I found out he wasn't coming home this weekend, and I realized how disappointed I was. Then I got the paranoid insecure feeling and ended up asking him on the phone last night whether or not he was still interested in pursuing other people. He said no but also said that he doesn't want to rush into our relationship. He has no desire to meet anyone else, and he just wants to see what happens over time with us. I interpret that to mean that he wants to see me when he has time for me but isn't going to go out of his way to make time for me. Am I right in thinking this? How can I just get myself to keep cool and not get all paranoid? I know the whole "if it's meant to be it will happen" philosophy is the way to go, but sometimes it just makes me want to scream, "WHEN WILL IT HAPPEN?"

Hence the resolution refresher course (slightly revised to reflect the present circumstances):

1) I will NOT spend one minute thinking about this relationship. There are other, more important things to focus on.
2) I will work on continuing to stay in physical shape and will force myself to get into emotional shape.
3) I will not let my self-esteem be influenced by any male's behavior towards me. (Just because the Bagel doesn't want to rush into anything doesn't mean I'm not worthy of a relationship.)
4) I will focus on work, school, and my tutoring; I will give each 100% effort (meaning I will go back to searching for nonfiction nature literature after this post).
5) I will finally finish setting up my condo so it looks like a cozy home instead of a dump.

I just need to get some balance!